Release

    I’ve been thinking too much for a long time. Thinking about the past, the present and the future. How? Theorizing on how the past has made me who I am today. Wondering how the present is going to affect my future. And trying to figure out the best way to act in the present so it will influence my future the right way.

It’s not easy. It’s not funny, too. It’s been a harrowing experience, what with a crazy family reaching the threshold of cuckoo-ness. When you look at it, life sometimes doesn’t mean anything at all. It’s empty. You keep on doing the same thing over and over again, but you simply fall back in the same round-about.

It’s time that I let go. It’s time that I leave all the emptiness behind and fill my life with something else. Yes, people say psychologists are weird; after all they think about how people’s thoughts, cultural and familial influence, as well as social background affect them as a whole. So it’s not easy. My favorite psychologist is Sigmund Freud, the “sexy” psychologist. He has bizarre explanations for many subjects. But I don’t blame him. He’s not always wrong, but he’s not always right either. He may sound like a perv who has credit for whatever he says. As long as he finds a way to relieve all his tensions.

I’m going back to meditation once more. I’m going to hit the clubs and start swinging again. And I’m going to be not afraid of showing who I am. Because doing that sets my mind free.

 

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Release

Image          I’ve been thinking too much for a long time. Thinking about the past, the present and the future. How? Theorizing on how the past has made me who I am today. Wondering how the present is going to affect my future. And trying to figure out the best way to act in the present so it will influence my future the right way.

It’s not easy. It’s not funny, too. It’s been a harrowing experience, what with a crazy family reaching the threshold of cuckoo-ness. When you look at it, life sometimes doesn’t mean anything at all. It’s empty. You keep on doing the same thing over and over again, but you simply fall back in the same round-about.

It’s time that I let go. It’s time that I leave all the emptiness behind and fill my life with something else. Yes, people say psychologists are weird; after all they think about how people’s thoughts, cultural and familial influence, as well as social background affect them as a whole. So it’s not easy. My favorite psychologist is Sigmund Freud, the “sexy” psychologist. He has bizarre explanations for many subjects. But I don’t blame him. He’s not always wrong, but he’s not always right either. He may sound like a perv who has credit for whatever he says. As long as he finds a way to relieve all his tensions.

I’m going back to meditation once more. I’m going to hit the clubs and start swinging again. And I’m going to be not afraid of showing who I am. Because doing that sets my mind free.

Discovering Your Inner Voice

“When the moon takes the place of the sun, and the night sky is filled with a million stars, then we shall meet again.” Those words rang at the back of my head as I stared at the blank sheet of paper in front of me. Aargh! I said the same words when I was with my boyfriend the last time we had met. That was almost five years ago. Why did they bounce back to me just as I was composing a song?
Several things have changed in the last five years. I was struggling to be a writer back then. I was searching for my inner voice. I was learning how to evoke persuasive feelings through the ink of the pen. I was trying to make things work – for myself, and for my family. Yet, here I am now, living the life of an aspiring writer and seeking to change the world for the better! Ah, the pen is a mighty sword indeed.

I managed to complete my prose after some time.
“When the moon takes the place of the sun
I will be standing on higher stage
I will show the world the things they have done
I’ll reveal a brighter image
Unlike the one previously shun.

“When the night sky is filled with a million stars
I will run my way to you
I will throw away my old mask
I’ll make sure I make it through
Then we shall meet again.”

It looks like a song. Well, that’s just me.
In every single one of us, we have our own unique substance. It could be a skill, an ability, an attitude, or a personality. It could be our dreams. We just need to spend some time – quiet time – to find it. Once we discover it, we need to pin it right there and then, before we lose it. From there, we develop it slowly and allow it to grow larger and larger. As that happens, we set up checkpoints so that we know where we are.

It’s just make makes us stand out. It’s what makes us sui generis.

 

The Ultimate Truth – or is it?

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I could not believe it stemmed from something so simple, yet profound. My work logbook has furnished me with a few surprising finds to my quest for deeper understanding.  I used to work with an international company that taught really, really, extremely young children about everything in an hour.  Topics included were English, Maths, Science, […]

Recognizing Your Internal Locus of Control

Everyone is walking in a sphere made of rubber.  The sphere is transparent, it moves along the ground as one moves forward.  It encapsulates and protects the individual from the danger of the outer forces.  It feeds him and provides for him, be it food, be it water, be it a home, or even a […]

What You Call Fair Treatment

The Left-Out Chick

Pain! Oh, why must the world feel you when it’s not supposed to? Why must you inflict the ones already wounded?

Earth is a blatant mix of the extremely poor and the extremely rich, the least successful and the very successful, and so on. Of course , everyone experiences pain to a certain extent. Nevertheless, it appears as if the less privileged and more disadvantaged tend to feel pain more frequently. It is nearly always the poor who are looked down on by society. It is always the penniless who fail to accomplish their goals. And it seems as if it is always the poor who are left at the foot of Injustice herself, working their way to make life better for themselves. They continuously make deals with everyone, but nobody wants to make any deal with them.

Life has never taught me to behave unfairly to anyone. Life has not once taught me to differentiate amongst people and demonstrate selfishness toward such small “matters”. When it comes to handling problems, there is only a one-way route to completing the task. If there’s a short-cut that someone is able to take, then by all means let every living person on the planet use that short-cut! It’s not necessary to scrutinize your fellow human being’s DNA (deoxyribonucleic acid) – if that is possible – before showing him. There isn’t even the need to “charge” extra just because you perceive his dissimilarity.

Remember the verse in the Bible (please excuse me) that states that all men were created equal. Yet we fight bloody wars, commit murders, stage genocides, get all the children we can involved in the confusion so that they be confused as well, or  even worse – put the weak through an era of torture.

We probably did that to show that we haven’t lose control on certain things, but anyway (pardon me for this), do you realize there are millions of the less fortunate out there waiting to be clothed, sheltered, fed, and sent to school? No, we don’t; we choose to ignore instead the surreal events and live our entire days mumbling and grumbling but not doing anything about it.

Don’t you realize there’s too much blood shed on the ground? No, you don’t. Don’t you see there is an overwhelming amount of suffering? Well, you are aware of it. Just how much can you take?